I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head

where I would impress you
with every single word I said.
Would come out insightful or brave or smooth or charming
and you'd want to call me
And I would be there every time
you'd need me
I'd be there every time...
But for now I'll look so longingly
waiting...
For you to want me, for you to need me, for you to notice me

Its no secret, I'm generally akward when I meet new people. Sometimes a drink will "relax" me, but really I think I am still awkward, I just don't care anymore. Generally, I think the problem is that I'm worried they won't understand my humor. My mom doesn't get half my jokes and she has known me my whole life, how is someone who met me an hour ago supposed to understand? Oh well, gotta just keep on trying.


Currently listening :
So Impossible
By Dashboard Confessional
Release date: By 18 December, 2001