The End

This isn't necessarily a new song as much as it is a reworking of a previous song. I was never quite satisfied with the old version. I like this one much more.

The End

Let go
of everything
that used to be
let go of all of it
and see what you're missing
You're coming back
altered reality
waiting here for you
is changing everything

Its beautiful
the sky tonight
can't see the stars
but trust they're there
they're watching us
see through the light
this is the end
this is the end

and like
the razor on you're wrist
the ruby red it flows elegantly
and like
a late December day
our words hang with our breath
in the cold air

Its beautiful
the sky tonight
can't see the stars
but trust they're there
they're watching us
see through the light
this is the end
this is the end

not ready to pay
for another fucking mistake
I knew it was a bad idea
but you. . .

Just Collin Music

Song of the Week is done, but I said I would still post songs here occasionally. This is going to be the new heading for them "Just Collin Music". Because these aren't songs I'm playing with any band, they are just me.

A Hell of a Difference

More words just bring on more confusion
Here's a taste that you can't forget
I can still remember your face
from the first day that we met

Settle for a used solution
A sip of wine and your soaking wet
Convince yourself of an illusion
ignore the things you've become instead

and who knew it could come to this?
and who knew it could come?

We fell in love

In the key of C
We walked along
Down by the sea

You followed me down
The neck to D
We fell again
Into the sea

You've changed
Oh, you've changed

Maybe all I need is a shot in the arm

What you once were isn't what you want to be anymore


There is something about this part of the year that just makes your feet feel heavier.


Currently Listening to
Summer Teeth
by Wilco

I'm your only friend

I'm not your only friend
But I'm a little glowing friend
But really I'm not actually your friend
But I am

Just an update, since I haven't posted in forever.

I have been working on Song of the Week still, but I haven't been posting the songs. A lot of my writing right now is going towards my new band MonthNumberColor and I don't want to post the songs here out of respect for the other people in the band. That being said, there are a couple of songs that are not going to be used by the band that I will be posting in the next day or so.



Currently listening to
Flood
by They Might Be Giants

What fills the magic in the meantime?

I know it’s hard without a vice,
You need to find a new solution,
Adaptation or retribution,
If you truly do believe in something,
Somehow it all works out.

I thought of all the things I'd like to say
Cramped up and couldn't write a word all day
I just waited for my world to fall apart
That's why I'll never finish anything I start

I'm completely bored
With every single word
And nothing ever works
And this juvenile search
Is systematically revealing to me
That I need a new approach

So sick of all the things I'm trying to say
Cramped up and couldn't write a word all day
I just waited for my world to fall apart
That's why I'll never finish anything I...


I hate growing up. I had greasy pizza for lunch yesterday. It then tortured me for the rest of the day. A few years ago I could eat shit for a week straight and I wouldn't feel any different then when I started. Not anymore. If this is what I'm like at 25, I can't even imagine how I'm going to have to eat at 50.


Currently Listening to
Even If It Kills Me
by Motion City Soundtrack

At night the stars cry.

I gaze upon a lake of backyard.
And under these overpasses a towering mountain does lie.
But don't cross the river, not over there.
There will be a mystery revealed that we're meant to share.
So if I am to seek this place y'all can see
Whose Chariot to follow so I can be free?

My thoughts on the presidential election as expressed by someone else on a random message board:

None of it is important. President is the most overrated position in the world. A trained monkey would do no better and no worse. In fact, I'd vote for a trained monkey over any human.

I can't really say it any better.



Currently listening to
In Between Now and Then
by O.A.R.

Clear as a bell are the short breaths

That you take when you're distracted.
Same as the way that you roll your eyes
When I've asked too many stupid questions.

My faith in zeroes and ones to host our romance,
Rests on hope you gave that I've some claim to your heart.

I wouldn't mind but you are my only hope.
I wouldn't mind but you are my only hope.


I've decided to use my blog more. Not so much for other people to read, but for me to have yet one more way to return to a specific point in time and try and figure out what was going through my head. (That makes sense to me althoug I don't know if it really says what I mean for it to say)

Anyways . . .

Right now I am frustrated by my inability to act. It seems my confidence is not up where it should be.



Currently listening to
The Only Reason I Feel Secure
by Pedro the Lion